I’ve had this whole “oh she must be stuck on herself always liking her posts and sharing her art constantly” thing come up too many times now and I really want to say..if you honestly believe that’s what I am about..that I think I’m the bomb and better than others…you REALLY don’t know me.
At all.
I also get this same thing from people because I’m an introvert by nature and not very chatty or into small talk and feel very uncomfortable when I first meet people. If for some reason that’s not your first impression of me it’s because you or my surroundings had me at ease. If a person or surroundings make me feel comfortable…I’m a little more relaxed and you might get the rare “everything is good so I can put my guard down” all smiles Anne. But most often I feel awkward and not at ease. Some kind of social anxiety thing that honestly I’ve just tried to live with and ignore the random “oh she is a bitch” talk with people who don’t try to get to know me.
Trust me it’s okay…I can be hard to read in person so I don’t expect everyone to get me or like me or make an effort.
I look pissed off when I don’t smile as well so I get that assumption of what kind of person I am as well. I’ve had men tell me they are afraid of me because I’m not all smiley or one to flirt back unless you give me a reason to trust ya. I’ve had women start rumors that I must be f***ing my boss because I do a good job at work and because I don’t chum around with them…well obviously I’m a brown nose boss f***er.
Trust me when I say…I have dealt with this my entire life so I don’t even think about it too much anymore. But once in awhile someone tries to tell me who I am or who they perceive me to be. At 46 I’m starting to feel like this is just insecure nonsense and judgmental and I just don’t give it the energy I used to but I will clap back if I’m in the mood to.
You Had To Be There… 